Isolation

I have been confined to the 3 rooms and 1 balcony of my apartment for a few months now. If it weren’t for the windows, the balconies, the birds chirping outside, the lake and the clouds I would probably loose my sanity. There are 4 people in the family but most times we are stuck to device screens, the child is absorbed in its play like we are on our mobile phones. The resorting to the banality of superficial conversations or entertainment on the mobile only makes the gnawing sense of loneliness, boredom and isolation more obvious. I have a feeling that people and things can’t solve this problem. The problem is self created, its the continuous activity of self centered thought That creates the boundary of the self , isolates it and then invents the escapes. The inability to stop the chattering mind can wear one out and make one insane and neurotic if there isn’t enough energy to take the necessary action. I think thats what happens unless one escapes into the numerous avenues we have of stimulating pleasure and sensations whether its physical, intellectual or spiritual. But one cant knowingly deceive oneself, all one can do is to say with the situation gathering the intensity of all one has and maybe things will change.