Enjoyment

Today a friend of mine suggested me to buy a car and roam around and thereby enjoy my life. However I have been into that trap many times before and it never works for me. No more than a fleeting moment of superficial happiness comes out of these myriad forms of enjoyment which seem to keep other people happy and engaged. A few moments into the activity and I start witnessing the separation between myself and the life situation, and get too lost in my thoughts. Apparently from what I have heard until that separation dissolves there is no respite. And when it does, I won't have to change the situation in my life to enjoy it because there would be no thoughts to feel dissatisfied with life. Until then I will live a life of absolute fatalism and try to reduce the resistance that says no to life. That may not be the best way to live life but it's an easy one, to act when the life force urges you and rest otherwise. One may slip into laziness and uselessness because of that, but with enough alertness shone on it, it may turn into something useful.